Monday, November 27, 2006

Love is never answered in Love *sigh*

yeah.....very true.....never ever in your life....would you encounter a relationship made up of (so called) LOVE actually in Love.....You see a couple.....You think they are so lucky...They both are in SO SO LOVE....i mean who the hell...doesn't want to be in love.....It is such a beautiful feeling.....To think about a person who never existed until you met him/her....and everything changes once the eyes exchange a few glances.....the only thing matters then is the person....how is he feeling....you care about her all the time...you try to think what she may be thinking.....evrything revolves around the person.....you would do anything....by going out of the way.....but then you have to control.....here i retuirn back to topic.....The person you think (internally you are sure...it is love...but you want to think otherwise....for the reason i am gonna tell next) you are in love....is in love with somebody else....a relationship thats in existence for years togather....here comes the test number one of your love....you decide to keep admiring (mind the word....it is admiring and not loving which you are actually doing) the person....accept the fact that she can;t be yours....but you say this....you shouldn't be expecting anything of the person you love....you will have to love unconditionally (why the hell do they have to show these things in the movies...but its not just movies.....you actually want to do that....from the bottom of your heart).....you decide to love her but never give a sign to her....then you specind time with her.....you listen to her....and you realise that how right you were in loving her....and you feel the urge to express.....because you just can't let her go......she is the person you want to be in love with....you want the small hour or 2 meets to turn into the entire day....everything is getting affected.....you are lost.....but you want to continue....you love her so much.....you keep listening to her.....what her boy friend has to say.....how they fell in love.....and you endure happily, things that she does and which annoy you....but you are ready to accept her even then.....you have given yourself completely to her....you do everything she wants you to do......and you are actually happy doing it.....i mean....how else would you define LOVE........but no.....you are admiring her.....(wtf?).....and then you start realising that she is talking less of her boyfriend.....her older relationship.......it is more of she and you in the conversations (tujhe na dekhon toh chain...mujhe aata nahi hai......kahin mujhe pyar...hua toh nahi hai.....oh so sorry....the song on my headphones)...you try to stop her doing this.....you try to get her back on track.....with her relationship....a relationship strengthned over time....tested and tried by fire called time....(oh! what crap?)......but she doesn't want to do that...she is talking about some other stuff....some other person may be.....(is it me?.....oh god....let it be me please).......and one fine day....she tells you.....she is feeling a little more and different about (not me) a common friend......(oh holy shit...why could it be not me)......and you know the common friend.....he gives a damn about her or for any other girl for that matter....and you have to live with the fact that.....
X loves Y.....Y loves Z.....and what the helll......Z loves himself......there is no relationship between the crappy alphabets....

LOVE AND LIFE ...... COMPLICATED

1 comment:

shrikant said...

Lage raho!!!!!!!!!